That DazzLing Show

Finally, my 1st solo show!!!!!!!! Come and bedazzled!

http://www.myspace.com/thatdazzlingshow

Dedicated 2 Deaw

A face etched in silent anguish
Hands wreathed with veins of suffering
Your heart draws me like a moth to flame
Words left unspoken but volumes transmitted
How does one tear herself away from a hero
Unesteemed by the world but exalted by angels
Your unadulteration makes it hard to leave
Before anything has even started
Because I phileo you, I choose to
Before our souls become enmeshed
Not because you are unworthy
But because you are priceless

Is he the varn?

Only time will tell. In the meantime, a gal's gotta keep living for her dreams. I might just have my 1st venue for The DazzLing Show! To be confirmed later today.

Stay tuned and remember to bring your friends!

;D

Retro @ TCC

Till Further Notice

Hey babies, won't be on msn or blogging for a while.

Rationale?

Less talk, more action.

Tag though, I'll reply.

Keep in touch!

:-)

A Heavy Heart

It's so much easier for me to put up foodie pictures than talk about what I've been going through and feeling the past few weeks.

March was a raw month filled with unnegotiated pain-in-the-nose. The vasomotor rhinitis showed no signs of letting up. This inflammation that hit a new low since a bout of flu in early Feb has made it not just hard to speak or sing but virtually impossible to open my mouth on certain days. But somehow, in the course of this week over a confluence of events, God assured me that He WILL heal me from the inside out. I just need to believe and receive. And that has been the hardest thing for me to do since the affliction three years ago. To know in the head but not in the heart in itself is a torment or cruel joke. You want to but you can't.

A complete heart surgery was needed to stop the wondering and wandering. Is it God's will to heal? Does He want to heal me? I needed supernatural intervention to just rest in His love. A relentless love that will redeem me from every wretched pain in this harsh and unremittingly cold season. Tammy calls my recent breakthrough a "crossover" where I am finally entering my Promiseland of restoration as MORE breakthroughs await me.

God seems to be the Chief Physician who's in the business of fixing broken hearts. Even Corrinne May was going through a challenging time with irregular heartbeats. The good news is she's on the steady road to recovery after a recent operation. Thank God.

Somewhere in my heart, I wish I too had a surgical procedure that could magically remove the rhinitis. But I have no man-made panacea or solution. Nothing short of a miracle can lift this condition and restore the nasal walls that were burnt away in an unorthodox treatment gone awry last June.

My only hope is Jesus.

And like Corrinne so aptly articulates:

I fear I do not have the strength to withstand it
to stumble through
to fight my way
to the end

I shall look towards your light
until I reach that day
where I can collapse
bloodied
in your arms
and feel you holding on to me
for in my dying breath and in my frailty
you are my strength

Amen

Arvind's Farewell Party

Guess who was the real STAR???